Tuesday, November 1, 2011
The ups and downs
Thankfully, there have been a lot more ups since hearing the heart beat on Friday, and the downs have been less extreme. It eased my mind tremendously to know that after so much spotting and the lack of symptoms, the baby has continued to grow and thrive on track.
UP: These last few days I have enjoyed the fact that I don't feel sick. I have a had a couple random times where the thought of throwing up appealed to me even though I didn't feel nauseous (or maybe was a tiny bit because I was hungry) - how weird is that?! And a couple times I coughed and thought I would gag. So weird things happen from time to time, but I can go a couple without experiencing any symptoms. I must be one of the lucky 25%. :) I have a dull lower back ache, some bre.ast tenderness and fullness, and an abdomen that just feels fuller (even though it doesn't look it). I also have cramping on and off that seems like normal "uterus stretching" from what I can tell, and it never feels intense. Although sometimes it is pretty strong and makes me wonder if it is "bad" cramping, but usually it just is a pleasant reminder that there is a baby growing in there. :)
DOWN: How can I always find something to scare me? (TMI warning) A couple nights ago I inserted my progesterone pill and felt like I hit my cervix....but all of the other times it has felt high and far away. Cue internal temptation to freak out. I felt like God carried me through that one because I read my verse on my phone, prayed, and managed to go to sleep without worrying. The next morning (and everyday since then) the cervix has been high...
UP: Listening to the heart beat on my phone. :)
DOWN: Getting a cold. So far it's not too bad, but it is difficult to manage without taking any decongestants. I woke up early Monday morning and felt so much pressure in my face that I got scared I was getting a sinus infection. I stayed home from work, breathed steam every 2 hours, and started using a nasal rinse twice per day and it seems to be helping.
UP: Going out to dinner on Friday to celebrate hearing the heart beat and not feeling like I could eat because I'm pregnant. It wasn't because the food didn't look or taste good (it did!), but I just felt full after only a couple bites. I don't want the sickness, but these occasional reminders that I am pregnant are nice. :)
DOWN: I was supposed to fly to St. L.ouis today to visit my best friend from high school. She and her family are moving out of the country in January, so we had planned this as the last big visit. Also, her husband was going out of town so I was going to help with the kids. Well...I had already started freaking out about going because I'm pregnant (nervous to fly, nervous to be away from home and DH...)....and I was getting stressed about it. The doctor said it was completely fine to fly so I just planned to go. But then I woke yesterday with that pressure in my face and decided I just couldn't do it. I'm not that sick, but I don't want to get worse, and missing sleep, traveling, etc. with a cold just seemed like too much. I don't want to get a sinus infection and need antibiotics, you know? And I just can't push myself like I normally would and risk it. But I felt terrible canceling :(
UP: Everyday that goes by feels like a gift from the Lord, and I continue to thank him daily for this baby and pregnancy!