Sunday, November 13, 2011

Struggling tonight

After my pap smear on Friday, my doctor specifically said not to worry if there was some bleeding afterwards. So when I started spotting later that night, I was calm. I spotted through out the next day (Saturday), but still felt like it seemed "normal" after a pap smear, it wasn't heavy, and it wasn't accompanied by cramping, so I was doing fine.

But then this morning (Sunday morning) I woke up at 5:00am to what felt like bleeding. It was terrible. It really wasn't *that* much, but there were two gushes of bright red blood. I was only wearing a pantyliner, so it also probably seemed like more than it was since it got everywhere. I tried to tell myself it was just from the pap smear as I cleaned myself up (and changed the sheets...), but as I crawled back into bed I laid awake waiting to see if I started cramping. In my heart I felt like the baby was ok, but I felt like if I started cramping and bleeding more the baby might not be. As I laid there I went through some of the comforting verses I have memorized, and I think after an hour or so I managed to doze off for a little bit.

I woke up tired and on edge. Thankfully there have been no more gushes of blood, but I have continued to have red spotting all day that continues to be unsettling. The day has felt long. As I type this I feel crampy - the regular period like cramps I have had all throughout this pregnancy - but accompanied by the bleeding episode last night and the red spotting today it is even more upsetting.

I think I will call the doctor tomorrow. Part of me knows she will just say it is normal from the pap smear, and I don't even necessarily want an ultrasound at this point - all of these ultrasounds might get expensive, and I feel like the baby is ok and that this is just my darn cervix (and maybe the bleeding is worse because of the cysts?!). But hopefully hearing her say it is normal (or saying I need to come in for an ultrasound) will ease my nerves.

Praying there is no more bleeding and that the spotting stops ASAP!!

PS - Leah, thanks for sharing your bleeding post-pap story. It has been a serious comfort to me this weekend! And if anyone has any scary stories, please don't share since I don't need anything to add to my worry...thank you!

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hillary,

To calm you a bit, my doctor reminded me that there are many, many, tiny blood vessels and sometimes they rupture and this causes bleeding. I know this is stressful and my heart is with you. Do call your Doctor in the morning...my OB always said "if you are worrying, you should be calling" You owe yourself the peace of mind sweet friend.

BIG HUGS and I'm praying for you and your sweet baby.

Andrea
persuitofourfairytale

Life Happens said...

Praying that the spotting will stop and that God may comfort you and ease your mind. Remember, He got you this far!

An Aspiring Mom-To-Be said...

If it helps... I had some spotting at almost 12 weeks. I'd recently seen my OB and had had a pap smear as well. I totally flipped out when I saw it and called my doctor. He sent me to the OB ER to have it checked out. After doing an ultrasound and an exam, I was reassured that everything was fine! The on-call doctor reminded me that cervixes are really sensitive and that they bleed really easily. She thought that my spotting was from cervical irritation (probably the pap). Baby was absolutely, positively fine (and still is at 28 weeks!). My point is that this is all probably from your pap smear. You CAN have bleeding and still have a perfectly healthy baby!

For what it is worth, it was really reassuring to have everything checked out. I knew that I would be too worried about things if I didn't. Your doctor is there for any questions or concerns you have so don't hesitate to call her!

KK said...

I had bleeding after my pap during pregnancy. Like you, it got heavier a couple of days after my pap (when I felt like if it was from the pap, it should have been closer to the event). It was fine, he's 14 months old now. :) I hope you call and the doc sets your mind at ease with advice or an ultrasound.

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Jem said...

How scary is that? Do call your OB in the morning. Hopefully she'll have some reassuring words for you.

mrs.pinkpearls said...

Praying everything is ok!

mrs.pinkpearls said...

Praying everything is ok!

Nicole said...

I agree that it's probably fine, ESPECIALLY if you feel in your heart that it is. But I also am totally with you in the mega-worry department. Maybe ask if you can run in just for a doppler listen? Good luck!

Tami said...

I understand your fears. I had bleeding with this pregnancy at 6.5 weeks. I went to the ER because I knew I would just stress about it. Happily everything was okay. Praying the same for you, and call your OB. You will feel better I am sure.

Anonymous said...

It's so scary to have spotting during pregnancy, but I am positive that your baby is just fine:) I am 8 weeks pregnant, and I have been spotting for a few days now, but today it turned red. Even though this happened with my last pregnancy at 8 weeks also (he's 21 months now), I freaked out and called the doctor on call. Just like last pregnancy, he reassured me that everything was most likely fine, especially since we have already seen the heartbeat. Praying for comfort for you and health for your precious baby!

Rosie said...

Stay positive Hillary! The L&D nurse in me wants you to know that more than half of nonpregnant pap smear patients bleed after a pap. Add in all the pregnancy progesterone and the cysts and you were bound to have some bleeding. I'll pray for you and your little bean. I am so enjoying all of your pregnancy posts. I feel like I'm living vicariously through you. Best of luck!

Sarah said...

I had some bright red bleeding around 6 weeks I think? Try to not to get too upset, I know its hard not to worry. But I definitely think it's best to get checked out with the dr just to ease your mind. Sometimes our minds can be our worst enemies through this whole process :)

Leah said...

I totally relate, but trust me, it is very normal. I know though. . . who wants to bleed in pregnancy? NO ONE! That's for sure!

After my 9 week pap smear, I was bleeding so much I cried my mom sobbing. (And, and the OB who did the exam, even said that she had never seen that amount of bleeding after a pap. Well, that was the last time I saw that particular OB.) My Mom works at a huge hospital and is very good friends with an OBGYN. My Mom got us in touch immediately, and I cried to her. She assured me it's very normal, and that is why many OB's won't even do paps during a pregnancy. She said it's not dangerous, but it effects the nerves of the mother. She then said that when women are pregnant, we become more vascular, and our veins are full of blood, more than usual, and because of that the cervix becomes that much more sensitive and vascular. She then assured me that the cervix is actually no where near the baby in the uterus. She said if my spotting lasted longer than 7 days to go in. Well, it lasted 5. 5 LONG days, but it did eventually stop. And I did freak out and go to the hospital and had an ultrasound done and there was my baby girl kicking away, which just proved that my bleeding cervix didn't affect the pregnancy at all.

And also, everytime I had an internal exam done later in the pregnancy, I would spot for a few days afterwards. Again. . . nerveracking!!!

But my baby girl was healthy and the cervical bleeding never affected the pregnancy at all.

I just wanted to share more of my story cause I've been where you are. I was a spotter in the luteal phase as well, and any type of spotting puts me in the dumps immediately. But it can be so normal.

Praying for you, your husband, and that little babe of yours. :) And praying for your peace.

Britney said...

At 7 weeks, I had a vaginal ultrasound and started bleeding afterwards. Now, we have a beautiful 5 month old girl.

Rest assured God has this baby cradled in the palm of His VERY GOOD AND CAPABLE hands....

Never worry about anything. But in every situation let God know what you need in prayers and requests while giving thanks (Philippians 4:6, GW).

Worry literally strangles our peace and weakens our faith.

Worry is a control issue.
Worry is wasted energy.
Worry is consuming and unhealthy.
Worry is a joy thief.
Worry is the interest that we pay today on tomorrow’s problems.
Worry is practicing atheism.
Worry makes everything seem bigger than it really is.

When we choose to trust God, we are choosing against worry. In Isaiah 26:3, Isaiah voices a powerful prayer of faith that should be our prayer as well. “You, Lord, give true peace. You give peace to those who depend on you. You give peace to those who trust you.” It is simple. God rewards our trust with His peace.

Adrianne said...

Praying...

kdactyl said...

I had the gushing like that a couple of times in my last pregnancy and all was well. The cervix is just soooo sensitive in early pregnancy as all the new blood has rushed there to support baby. My Dr. told me it is "friable" it is so sensitive. I think you are just experiencing some post pap irritation. That ultrasound showed a super healthy baby and that is very reasuuring.
kd

Carrie said...

It seems that most people have already said this, but I can't stress enough....if you are worried about ANYTHING, call your doctor. Even if you know what she'll say, it's still reassuring to actually HEAR those words from your doctor. Doctors are used to people calling and asking questions. This is your first pregnancy....of course you're going to be worried and have lots of questions. Any doctor that doesn't understand that is not a good doctor. I called at 16 weeks just because I had a bad dream and I couldn't get it out of my head. I just wanted to come in and hear the heartbeat. My doctor was very understanding when I called and when he put the doppler on my belly and picked up the heartbeat right away, I felt a little silly....but at least I was reassured that my baby was just fine. I know everything is fine with your baby, but from now on....if you are worried about anything, just CALL :)

Leah said...

Just had to post again to say friable. The word the nice OBGYN who calmed me down used was friable. And I would definitely think that cysts on a cervix would add to the bleeding any more. Still praying!

mhdmom said...

Hi Hillary, I had very similar bleeding episodes after my pap with my second. It hadn't happened with my first so I was very worried. Turned out to be fine and a reminder to me that all pregnancies are different. I know this does little to calm your nerves and I wish I could take the anxiety away. This part of motherhood (the worry, I mean) never really goes away, but your little one is so worth it! Take care of yourself, Jenna

Erin said...

never be afraid to call your Dr, this is exactly why they are there and you should never feel crazy calling them, even repeatedly. I was a nervous nelly in my pregnancy and called ALL the time, and on the plus side, my OB and I got nice and close :)

Also I rented a doppler around 12 weeks at http://www.bellybeats.com/ put my mind at ease to listen to baby every single day!

Jessica R said...

I had tons of cramping throughout the first tri, and our miracle baby is safely here. I think it's normal. Trust your gut, and trust God :)