Friday, November 12, 2010

Egg retrieval

A friend from church organized a prayer schedule for us, and we had people praying for us and our future family hourly today. We feel so blessed and thankful for their support, and it helps me to know so many are lifting us up in prayer - God most certainly hears our cries.

We retrieved 10 eggs today. My RE gave us a preliminary report and said 6 looked good, 2 were maybes, and 2 were immature. I feel ungrateful and I hate being ungrateful, but I was disappointed that, despite being on WAY more medication, we got fewer eggs.

But we got what we needed. We decided to fertilize 4, although the RE wanted us to do 6. We just couldn't feel comfortable doing that, and he didn't push us at all when we said 4. I am thankful for that.

Just like on trigger day, I feel an overwhelming sense of hopelessness about this cycle... And trying to conceive in general. I don't know. I just really don't know. I hate that I am already crying.

Thank you so much for your prayers and well wishes!

16 comments:

Danielle said...

Reading about the prayer schedule for your future family made me tear up. I'm not very religious but that sounds so sweet. Good luck to you this cycle!

A said...

Oh geez, I am so sorry that you're feeling down. I will be praying for you also, as I know the feeling of being let down after ER (HUG)

amy said...

It must be the best feeling to feel so supported by your church family, and that they are praying continuously for you...awesome!!

I have not even begun to go through what you have, but I must say that I understand the "premature disappointment". I'm doing my 2nd IUI this month and already feel disappointed...what's up with that??

I said it to a girl today at work that it probably won't even work (the one girl I shared it with). She said "However deep your faith is, so goes your life". That sentence doesn't really flow well, however, if you think about it it makes sooo much sense. We can't lose faith in the Lord that He will fulfill the greatest desire of our hearts! Easier said than done, I know.

I'm praying for you. I pray THIS is the cycle for you. Meditate on the fact that this IS it :)

Blessings!

Life Happens said...

I am praying for you guys! Just remember that it's all in God's hands. He makes it all possible, regardless of the numbers. ;)

Valerie "Why" said...

Sorry you feel down. wishing you lots of strength!

Melis.sa said...

Praying for fertilization and a smooth transfer in a few days!!

Courtney said...

What a great church family that you have! I'm sorry that you feel so hopeless and down. I have been there. Oh girl.. I have been there! My pillow cases constantly had so many mascara stains from crying uncontrollably during the 3 years that we were trying for a baby. I felt so hopeless, mad, jealous,lonely, bitter, ect.

I'm sure that you've heard every possible pep talk in the world.. so I'm not going to annoy you with "It WILL happen, just hang in there" I heard that phrase a gazillion times when we were still trying.

But I do want to tell you that I am going to put you and your husband at the top of my prayer list for the next couple of weeks. Prayer works. We can never deny that fact. And it is the ONE thing that will make the biggest difference.

I hope that you will be able to find some peace during the next couple of weeks.

God bless

RMCarter said...

Sometimes I think it is when you get to that point, when the hope is fading and you are at your very edge, that is when the doors of mercy open. I am also going through my most difficult cycle yet and the feeling of hopelessness is all around. I know it's hard, but we need to cling to those fleeting moments of hope when they come, and lean on all those prayers from others around us. So many people love and support you. <3 u!!

lindsey@sweetmondayphotography.com said...

Hang in there, Hillary! So many of us are rooting for you. Praying that God brings you and your husband a lot of comfort this cycle. And a positive beta would be nice, too! ;)

Meg said...

I hope you're feeling well physically after the ER? Tomorrow I think I'll take the liberty of asking my Sunday School class to lift you and DH up with me in prayer as well.

Mellow said...

I pray you have found a little joy this morning. I'm praying for you. This ride may be bumpy and full of twists and turns that we aren't ready for...but, we don't travel this road alone. Thinking of you today. :)

The L's said...

Praying for you...

Amanda said...

I really hope that one of those eggs is the one. I'll be praying for good reports and a transfer for you.

Sara said...

Wow, it sounds like you have quite a support system with your church. How awesome.
Praying that you get the results you have been hoping for this round.

andreajennine said...

Sorry you're feeling discouraged right now. So glad so many are praying for you; count me among them! May God do more than you can ask or imagine with those 4 fertilized eggs.

Momo said...

Hillary,

Stay positive, I know how hard it is to do so when things have not turned out as well as you had hoped. Keep praying! You're in my prayers and thoughts. Sending you hugs and lots of baby dust.