Friday, March 26, 2010

11dp 3dt: The end

This is what my husband had sitting on the table for me when I got home. He is not usually a flowers or gifts kind of guy, so this was extra sweet and thoughtful of him. It totally made me bawl and he could hardly understand what I was saying when I called to thank him because I was crying so hard.

Beta today confirmed the negative HPT, although they didn't call until 4:45 (and I went in at 9:30)! I wonder if they leave the "bad news" calls for the end of the day because they are less fun than the "happy news" calls. Anyway, the nurse said to call for a follow up appointment with the RE, so I guess we will go from there. DH and I think we would like to wait until May to cycle again.

27 comments:

Baby Wanted said...

I'm sorry.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry you don't get to be one of the "happy news" calls this time. I'm praying for you -- I know how tough BFNs can be, especially when on paper everything looks like it just might work. I really, truly hope you get your BFP soon.

Sarah said...

Very sweet of your hubby, the flowers are so pretty! Again, I'm so sorry :( You know, I think they really do keep the bad news till the last minute, because when they called to tell me my numbers dropped (and basically that I would miscarry anyday) they literally called five minutes before their office closed. Nice.

Anonymous said...

Oh, sweet one, I don't even know you but read your blog as an encouragement as I am on a similar journey. Tonight tears fall for you, and for others who long. Praying for you. . and I THANK you for ministering to me through your blog. . . reminding me God IS still faithful in the midst of our longings and heartaches.

Rach said...

How sweet of your husband. You two are the perfect example of a strong marriage. Glad to hear you are thinking about the future. Excited to see what the RE has to say. Best wishes!

Amber said...

The flowers are so beautiful and show what a great marriage you have. Thank you for sharing this with us even though it's hard during times like these. I'm so sorry this cycle didn't work out. You seem like such an incredible person.

Kelli said...

My sweet friend, I am praying for you and your dh as I know this is a big bump in the road. But praise God that it's just that - a bump, not the end of the journey! May sounds like a good month- I'm hoping to be paper pregnant around then!!

Rebekah said...

((hugs))

Life Happens said...

I'm sorry. You have an amazing loving husband. The flowers are beautiful! I hope the vibrant yellow brings a little happiness to your day.

AplusB said...

Hillary, I am so sorry this cycle was not the one. You have a lovely husband (those flowers are beautiful) and I'm so glad to hear that you are planning to cycle again. Please don't give up!

Just Believing said...

Prayers for you and your hubby....I don't know what else to say...I know how hard it is ;(

Katie said...

I am so very sorry.

Erin said...

I am so sorry. This isn't fair at all. Prayers for you and DH.

Leslie said...

I am so sorry!! I wish there was a way to make this easier for you. I know for me after my IVF did not work last year, taking a break really helped. Best wishes to you!!

lifebytheday said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. Sending you lots of prayers and wishes for peace. Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying for you! PS We will be doing 2nd our cycles together now! We are scheduled for May too!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

So sorry.. As for when you do try again. Just do it whenever you & your dh are ready. Your Journey to your miracle baby is not over, but I believe with all my heart that it's coming:)I know how hard it can be, so another prayer I pray for you is that you "Never Give Up".

Thinking of you,
Hannah

Kate said...

Thinking of you.

Amanda said...

I'm sorry hun. I know it's not the same, but you are already a mom, you just need a baby and I know that you will have one, some way, some day.

By Grace said...

(((((((()))))))))
It is so wonderful when you have a loving husband while walking this journey. I'm glad your DH did something nice for you...

May sounds like a good time, just a month or two inbetween...look forward to hearing about your follow up appointment!

Ps: It's not the end, it's only the beginning of a beautiful journey!

gringa78 said...

I'm so, so sorry, Hillary. I'm so sorry you have to feel what you're feeling right now...I know it's an awful time for you and your husband. I am hopeful for you every day...IVF doesn't always work on the first try...it didn't for me anyway. Just keep moving forward...every step forward you take will bring you one step closer to being a mom. And I KNOW it will happen. Thinking of you.

stillwaitingformysunshine.wordpress.com said...

I am so so so sorry. I was so hopeful for you. You continue to be in my prayers. I wish I had better words to say. You've written so many beautiful things in your last 2 posts. I hope when your ready, your next cycle will be the one!

Hannah said...

the flowers were so sweet! Again, my heart hurts for you, I'm so sorry!
HUGS!

A said...

Those are gorgeous flowers!! My heart is still broken for you... praying that you will find strength even while you're crumpled in God's hands right now (hug)

Elle said...

:(
I'm sorry hun!!!
*hug*

One Who Understands said...

I am so sorry that it didn't work. I was really praying for you. Your hubby is sweet. This whole IF game really sucks and it is wonderful to have a partner in this who can lift you up.

Al said...

Hilary, I am so sorry that this cycle wasn't the one. I'm glad your hubby is being so sweet and caring - those are some beautiful flowers.