Sunday, January 10, 2010

God's faithfulness

Hi friends,

Sorry to leave you all hanging - I tested negative yesterday.

There is much to say, but I have no energy to write anything. Crying is exhausting.

God's faithfulness has been very apparent to me and I know he hears my cries. Thank you, Lord.

xxoo

32 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry. I am praying for you.

Melis.sa said...

I'm so sorry Hillary

'Murgdan' said...

I'm so sorry.

Jessica said...

Covering you in prayers...this just sucks and I am so very sorry that you are having to go through this:(

Baby Wanted said...

I'm so sorry! :(

Rachel said...

So sorry.

Amber said...

I'm bummed for you. So sorry!

Christa said...

I'm so sorry Hillary

Rach said...

I'm so so sorry as well. Same story here, BFN this month for us.

I'm really looking forward to your future posts regarding your plans. They are always so inspirational.

Prayers to you during this time.

Angie said...

I am so sorry, too. Hoping you find clarity and strength as you move forward in your journey.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry Hillary. Take strength in God.

Jendeis said...

I'm so sorry. Wishing you peace and strength. Hugs.

Amanda said...

Sorry hun. ((Hugs))

addingtothepack said...

I'm so sorry, Hillary.

Courtney said...

I'm so sorry, Hillary. I'm so glad that you're feeling God's presence, though. I will be praying for you.

Melissa G said...

Ugh, my stomach totally dropped when I saw you had finally posted. I've really been thinking of you, and praying as well.

Hillary I am so very sorry that it didn't work again. My heart hurts for you. I hope you are able to find the peace you have been seeking regarding your next step. And I hope it comes very soon.

Hugs.

Waiting said...

I am so sorry, hun. I am praying for you and that God will comfort you and give you a clear direction He wants you to take next.

Beckie's Infertile said...

I am so sorry, thinking about you.

Caroline said...

Hi Hillary,
I'm so sorry for the pain that you are experiencing. I'm sending you a big online hug.

some how, some way, some day said...

So very sorry for this pain. God does hear your cries, he is right there with you. You have my prayers. Michelle

A said...

Oh gosh. I am so sorry to read this update (hug). Let God hold you right now- He is strong enough to support you when you to crumple into a heap (hug)

Rebekah said...

I'm so sorry. ((hugs))

Leah said...

I'm sorry Hillary. You were on my heart and mind all weekend, and you will continue to be. Thinking of you.

Life Happens said...

I am so sorry Hillary. Below are words from one of my favorite songs title, 'He Hears Me'(it's by an LDS artist, Hilary Weeks. I am praying for you.

Here I am again, down on my knees
And with every pleading word, Thy comfort I seek
Though the words are slow to come,
My thoughts are racing by
Peace fills the room, Thy spirit is night

He hears me
When I'm crying in the night
He hears me
When my soul longs to fight
Till the morning will come
And the light of the dawn reassures...
He hears me

Hope said...

I am so sorry. My prayers are with you.

TheDales said...

((HUGS)) I am so sorry.

I thought I would share a story you might be interested in hearing. I know you and your H are having difficulty deciding to move onto IVF or not. And I’m not sure how you feel about adoption but this story just warms my heart.

My mother's friend has a daughter who started TTC almost four years ago. She found out that she has endometriosis. Neither she nor her husband felt comfortable with fertility treatments due to religious beliefs and opted to move onto the adoption process.

A year after starting the process of adoption she received a call from her MIL who lives out of state. A young lady who goes to their church was in the process of putting her unborn daughter up for adoption and she urged them to contact the agency the young lady was using. The first and only adoption profile she looked at was theirs and decided on them right then and there. The father of the child was still unsure if he wanted to put the child up for adoption but after seeing their profile he finally agreed.

Well, the little girl was born on Friday. They finally have the miracle child they have been praying so hard for. The paternal mother has ten days to change her mind about the adoption so they still have 7 more days of praying that the paternal mother will not change her mind and will find peace with the decision that she has made.

So if IVF is not the route your husband and you chose to venture down it isn’t the end of the road.

I hope it is okay that I posted this but I thought something uplifting is just the thing you needed to hear in a time like this.

Keep your head up!

jones said...

Thinking of you and your family.

One Who Understands said...

So sorry Hillary.

entrusted said...

I'm so sorry. What you said about God's faithfulness reminded me of a stanza from the hymn, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness."

Pardon for sin, and a peace that endureth,
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide,
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside.

Those truths always brought comfort to me on hard days. Praying for you...
-andreajennine

WantWait&Pray said...

Ugh sweetie....I am so sorry. We sang this at church last night and it reminds me of the situation you're in right now:
"No weeping, no hurt or pain. No suffering..you hold me now, you hold me now"
God's faithfulness is forever true and He is holding you through these difficult times. Praying for you!

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for you!

Priscilla said...

I'm so sorry. I know the pain. :(

Hope your able to find hope again soon.