Thursday, December 10, 2009

10dpo: I tested

BFN.

It's still early, and you should probably save your condolences for the real test date at 14dpo.

But, the downside of testing early is that even though I know in my head it's still early, I feel like the BFN today points to the direction this cycle is going. This cycle feels over already.

I had the most vivid dream last night that I tested and saw the second line pop up instantly. It appeared so fast that I thought something was wrong with the test, so I took another one and, again, that second line popped up immediately. It was such a happy dream, but was not predictive of this morning's events.

The upside? I'll test again tomorrow, and assuming I get another BFN I think I will be able to go on all the rides at Dis.neyland without worrying, just like my RE said to. (That's why I tested early)

18 comments:

A said...

Hang in there (hug)!!

jeanna said...

thinking about you and hoping this is too early to test! Enjoy Disney!

Al said...

Enjoy yourself at Disney!

I hope it's still to early.

**hugs**

Rach said...

I'm still hopeful! :) It's not over till it's over!

Nicole said...

Good luck with your HPT and Dis.ney! It is early, so maybe a little pixie sprinkle dust will do the trick and you can get the BFP after your trip! Will you test while in DL with your fam?

Melissa G said...

I totally agree that it's WAY too early too test. Hang in there.

Hoping your dream comes true!

Lin said...

Well, crap! I was so hopeful when I saw this post! Still hopeful, though...perhaps bean is just a late bloomer! Good luck tomorrow!

kdactyl said...

Been pregnant 3 times and NEVER got a positive HPT until at least 12dpo....don't beat yourself up here...you are still in the game.

Rambler said...

I'm so disappointed to read about the BFN HPT today. :( But agree with the others that you're still several days away from a true test! But enjoy DLand, enjoy the ride, be a kid at heart and I'm still totally jealous you live so close to a park!!

Buck said...

Under every light source known to man, in varying rooms, positions, and angles, I had a BFN at 10 dpo too. And at 11 dpo I had the faintest line a person can possible get and still see something... It's not over til the crimson wave rolls. Or something like that.

Andrea said...

Hang in there and don't lost HOPE, as that is what we have when we have nothing else. HOPING you see that second line very soon :)

Enjoy your trip to Disney and I'm sending lotts of baby dust your way :)

Kate said...

I've done that so many times! Don't loose hope! Have fun at Disney!

Mrs. Hammer said...

Ugh, I totally held my breath while your page was loading. But it IS early! Either way I think you should have fun at DL :) You are still in my prayers.

Erica said...

Thinking of you...and hoping you tested too soon.

On another note, I was reading your dis.neyland dilemma post and had to laugh at the "outsmart God" comment. I was just telling the NICU nurses yesterday that I outsmarted nature and had two beautiful babies to prove it. You will too, Hillary, and it doesn't show a lack of faith. I like to think that faith is measured by our ability to continue fighting and believing in something even when all hope feels lost.

Anyway, sending you love and support...

Priscilla said...

HUGS Hilary!! Its still early so who knows....Have fun on the rides!! :)

AplusB said...

Sorry about the negative, but I don't need to tell you that it is super early to test. Have a great time in Disneyland!!!

Shanny said...

Yup, I'm skipping the whole 10dpo thing..
Have a great time on those rides!

Anonymous said...

I always test early too, so I know how you feel getting those single lines. Hopefully you'll get a positive - it is REALLY early, many people don't even have implantaion until 12 dpo.
GOOD LUCK!

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