Sunday, November 29, 2009

IUI #3 Part 1

Part 1 was this morning, and I am thankful to report better post-wash SA numbers! 10.7 million post wash (compared to 5.5 million last time)!! I didn't catch all of the numbers and the break down, but that bottom line number is decent.

Despite this good news, I have been crying off and on since last night and feeling particularly blue about our infertility. As much as I pray, hope, and try to imagine this cycle resulting in a pregnancy, I feel like we are "walking the plank," so to speak, towards IVF. I laid on the table after the IUI with tears trickling down my face, one after another. I want to be positive and hopeful but I just feel sad.

If this cycle is negative we only have 1 more IUI before we max out on the "statistically recommended" number of IUI's. However, we may do 2 more since I don't feel like the first one with the old RE counted, and I don't know if we're ready to just do one more.

We are praying for God's will in our lives. God, how far down this path will we go? How long will we wait? Will you eventually take us down another path to build our family?

21 comments:

Kelli said...

What awesome numbers! :) I know that it is hard to be joyful when going down such a hard road, but I can't wait to read about how God answers those tough questions for you along your journey. Then you'll look back and say...OH, this is why you wanted us to wait, this is why we had to go this far, and this is why we were on that path. Praying for you, my friend!

Rachel said...

Don't give up on this cycle! I am sure Part 2 will go just as well. Do as many IUIs as your RE and you feel fit...don't worry about all that just yet though. Try to stay positive as hard as it is.

Life Happens said...

I continue to hope and pray that this will be a successful cycle for you guys.

We did four IUI's before we got our first positive. I hope this cycle will be your positive!

A baby for Al? said...

Great numbers! I'm sorry you're feeling so upset and down right now, it's such a hard road.

I hope this is your cycle!

Jendeis said...

Yay for Part 1! Great numbers! Hoping that this is your cycle!

Amber said...

It is so hard when you're on this journey to understand it. And it drives me crazy that I don't know where this path will lead us next. Hang in there and we'll all hope for you when you can't do it for yourself!

Caroline said...

Hi Hillary,
I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling discouraged. It is completely understandable to feel up and down along the journey through infertility. Each month is so difficult - the cycle of hope followed by the cycle of despair.
I was incredibly scared of starting IVF. But IVF turned out to be the answer to our prayers.
It's hard to know where God is leading us, but he will be with you every step of the way.

Michelle said...

What great numbers on the SA! I'm keeping fingers crossed for you.

Courtney said...

Praying for you! I know how hard it is to wait on God's timing. I hope He blesses you with your miracle soon.

Melanie said...

I have been reading your blog for a little while and wanted to let you know how much God is using you in my life right now. My husband and I are meeting with an RE for the first time this week after 2 1/2 years of TTC and 3 failed rounds of Clomid. I will be praying for you in your journey and am thankful for your blog. Keep sharing and keep praying for that miracle! God is faithful.

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Waiting said...

Great post wash numbers! I hope the rest of this cycle goes better than the first little bit! Sometimes God makes the best of what we think is the worst!

Sorry, the last comment was me with my other blog. :S

Melis.sa said...

Those numbers are great!!!! I hope you wake up to a beautiful sunrise full of hope ((HUGS))

A said...

You should be proud that you're my first comment since I got home from my parents'!!! I am so sorry to read you were feeling sad yesterday, and I am praying that you wake this morning with a new assurance of God's presence amidst all of this. You are totally not alone- I feel the same way since this is our injectable #3/IUI #2 cycle!! I will be praying that God has plans to bless you with a baby this time, and if not that the next step in His plan for your family would be revealed!!

Leah said...

Thinking and praying for you Hillary. It's so scary to think you've almost exhausted an infertility option. Always have peace and faith in the plan. I truly believe things will work out the way they are supposed to. Thinking of you.

Mary said...

I've been thinking about you a lot. I'm so happy that the SA was so positive and I hope you feel hopeful again soon. (((BIG HUGS)))

WantWait&Pray said...

I'm thinking of you and praying for you both! BIG HUGS!!!!

Mrz. Hannah Myhre said...

Wow!! those numbers are Great!!! Praying for you. Hopeing that this cycle is it for you:) Also Praying for some peace of mind during this time for you both.

Hugs,
Hannah

Tabitha said...

These decisions are NOT easy, and I'm praying that God holds you in His hands and comforts you, guiding your hearts in the right direction!

Amanda said...

What a great count! I hope things click this cycle.

The statistic aren't one size fits all. If IUI's aren't costing you a lot doing a couple more of them makes sense (at least I think so). IVF is a personal decision and statistics and drs can't make it for you.

Baby Wanted said...

Oh honey, I can imagine how helpless you felt laying there. I know you have faith and I know God hears your cries...I pray that he hurries up and answers your prayers. I agree with you, I'd do 2 more if I was you BUT I'm praying this is your cycle...especially since DH's numbers are so much better!