I have been feeling weepy but spiritually satisfied lately in the midst of infertility. It is difficult for me to put words to it, but I am thankful! I just tried to describe it a friend who sent me a thoughtful and sweet email, so I thought I would share my response to her today to give you all a glimpse of where I am at:
Thank you so, so much for you your prayers and sweet email. I was quite weepy myself on Sunday morning...I often am at church. I think being in worship and hearing God's word always brings that deep, painful, but soul satisfying truth into my heart of God's goodness, faithfulness, and hope in salvation in the midst of my aching heart. I feel like I am offering it up as a sacrifice, and it is GOOD but emotional. This Sunday even more so with a sermon like that! I actually did cry in the car ride home trying to explain to DH how powerful and almost strange it is to FEEL so much emotion and sadness side-by-side with believing 100% that God is the only one who satisfies. It penetrates me to the deepest parts of my soul somehow.
I don't know if that makes sense, but hopefully you can see that God is answering your prayers in the work that he is doing in my heart. Of course, I still wish it didn't have to hurt so much. :)
I am praying for all of you....and now I'm off to catch up on how YOU have been these last few days!