Thursday, April 23, 2009

HPT numbness

I took an HPT this morning. I knew it was rather silly. I mean, I'm not even late yet since AF should be arriving today-ish. And I've been spotting since 1 dpo with my normal progression of light to heavy spotting. The only thing different is that I have had really sore bbs that have stayed sore. Normally that goes away before AF's arrival. So when I woke up this morning to aching bb's, I got out my internet cheapie HPT and took it.

BFN.

And I didn't care. It didn't make me sad. I threw it in the trash and continued getting ready for work. DH gave me a hug but I didn't even need it.

Oh, well. I'll save all those crying BFN's for treatment cycles (although I am hoping I won't have to experience that).

Now I am just hoping AF does come today so my cd 3 blood work will be on Saturday and not Sunday. I don't think the lab is open Sunday and it would just make life a little easier.

17 comments:

Betty Rubble said...

Sigh...I have one left in my drawer...I can send it to you...maybe it will be lucky for someone else?

Hugs...

Amanda said...

It would have been pretty cool to get yourself preggers before starting treatment. Sorry the HPT was neg. Boobs lie!

♥Tabitha said...

I just can't get over how simular we are...both have DH's two years younger with sperm issues, and we both have nasty spotting that progressivly gets heavier starting right after ovulation! But at least we also have in common that we trust that God will bring us our miracles! (((HUGS)))

hopeful #1 said...

I went through a stage where I would test on my 9th day of every cycle just in case I would get an early BFP. It never happened.

Now, I can't stand to test. I still think about it, only because it's a natural thing, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

With the #2 IUI on the horizon for me, I try to tell myself that I'm not testing until the 10/11th day this time. Last cycle, I started on the 9th day so I've got to at least get over that hurdle.

Forgive me, I can't remember if you are on clomid or any other drug this cycle...? If you are, clomid did a number on my boobs at the end of my cycles and it always messed with me. If you aren't... maybe it's just another lovely side effect that AF brings. She can surprise you sometimes. Another fine reason why I hate her.

Melissa said...

gah. it still stinks to only see one line.

woot for cd3 fun though, each day you're getting closer!

Mary said...

I hope it comes today too! Mine started this morning and my cd3 bloodwork will be on Saturday. I'm terrified of that test because of my age.

Will you be my cd3 fsh buddy, lol?

TheDales said...

I know it's hard to see but just look at it as now your odds will go up with starting your treatment plan.

I'm sure that you'll see those two amazing lines soon! Just hang in there.

Beautiful Mess said...

Sorry about your negative, but I'm glad you were "ok" with it. Happy belated birthday, btw. How was your cupcake? Enjoy your massage tomorrow!
*ICLW*

Fallopian 'Tudes said...

Boo. Glad you were able to shake it off though.

WantWait&Pray said...

I'm right there with you....I think when I actually DO get a BFP I just might not believe it since my eye's have NEVER seen more than 1 pink line and are trained to only see only that 1 pink line.

Sorry for the BFN- good luck on your cd3 b/w!

Infertility is Hard said...

Oh, how frustrating, but I'm glad you are taking it well. It's wonderful that you aren't going to focus your energy on the sadness, because that is so easy to do. (I know, I do it too often) I hope your AF comes so you can have your cycle day 3 bloodwork. :-D

Kelli said...

Sorry about your BFN - even when your are expecting it, it still stinks. Good luck with cd3 bloodwork!

tiffany said...

I haven't posted on your blog before, but I just had to today. I was expecting AF yesterday so I took a test this morning, and... BFN. AF arrived a few hours later. I was a little sad, but mostly just defeated. We've been TTC for about 16 months. Right now we're "trying on our own" before we move to IUI, and every passing month just sucks! I'm praying that we are both successful before we start any formal "treatment"! God bless!!

WiseGuy said...

....Belated Happy Birthday...Hope your AF comes as you want it to.....

wheresmy2lines said...

Sorry to hear of your BFN. My DH also had the varicocele op and his sperm has improved a bit, I hope it does the same for you x
ICLW

strongblonde said...

arg. so sorry to hear this :( i agree with amanda: damn lying boobs!

xoxo

Mr. Shelby said...

I hate those things! They are cruel!

Good luck on this upcoming cycle, and I'm looking forward to seeing how it goes.

Mr. Shelby (from iclw)