Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Thanks for "getting it" about the "happy news" of discovering I have fibroids. lol. I am still very relieved to know why I have had so much bleeding throughout my cycle, and it feels like validation. Like I can say to the world, "Seeee? I knew there was something wrong."
But I think the reality that I DO have something wrong has set in a little more, and thanks to Dr. Google I know it is nothing serious. In fact it is so not serious that the vast majority of women who get fibroids don't even get them removed unless their symptoms are severe. And -- here's the kicker -- they don't generally link fibroids to infertility....unless they are a certain type in a certain place of the uterus. Which the NP seemed to think one of mine was.
The RE called yesterday afternoon and scheduled me for another u/s with him today. He said he wants to get a look at them himself and do another type of ultrasound that includes some liquid (I am so fuzzy on that -- I don't know exactly what type of procedure we're doing today. I just know I need to take advil an hour before, but I don't think it's "as bad" as the HSG). He said the fibroid may be effecting my fertility.
Here's where I start to feel overwhelmed. The fibroids may be effecting my fertility. They might not be effecting my fertility and might not be removed. One (or both?) might be removed. If only one is removed I might still have all my bleeding issues. It appears fibroid removal may cause scar tissue in the uterus. If the fibroids are not removed because they are bot thought to be effecting my fertility, they might cause recurrent pregnancy loss down the road. Might, might, might, might! Obviously so few things in the medical world are 100% definite, but there are so many unknowns that it is frustrating. And, as many of you have experienced, it is hard to add more to the "Things Wrong with our Reproductive Abilities" list and to feel like it is just another thing to overcome in getting pregnant, you know?
However, I don't want to take away too much from the happy fact that we know what is wrong and it is either harmless or treatable. That is good -- I would so much rather know about this to work with it than to just feel like something is wrong. And it will be interesting to hear what the doctor's plan is after this mysterious u/s today! I'll keep you posted.