Friday, January 23, 2009

No 1% chance for us this cycle

Today I saw so much EWCM that it almost seemed wrong. More than I have ever seen in my 17 cycles of charting. More than I thought humanly possible to produce. Which is a good thing in this weird TTC world, right?

Then I realized that all this beautiful EWCM was about to go to waste. There is no TTC this cycle since DH isn't shall I say a position to BD. :) It was strange to realize that I could know from day 1 of my 11th cycle that it would be a BFN. Our usual 1% odds have been lowered to 0% (big drop, I know).

I'm trying to view this cycle as a relaxing break to the madness of TTC. I'm not anticipating ovulation, timing BD (nothing to time anyway, lol!), and dreading a 2ww of getting my hopes up. Heck, I wouldn't have even noticed the EWCM if it hadn't been so crazy.

I feel like I should do something special to enjoy this "relaxing" cycle. Any suggestions? What have you done on forced break cycles?


Caroline said...

Hi Hillary,

It can be really frustrating to sit a cycle out. I think that you have such a great attitude though. You are viewing it as an opportunity, and you are right. It can be really nice to have a bit of time out of TTC.

I love going away for the weekend with my DH. I tend to think about IF less when I am preoccupied with other things.

Anonymous said...

I go into crafting mode on break cycles. I have more counted cross stitch projects started and not finished than Joann's.

Do something for yourself on this break cycle. Something you could never do if you were pregnant or possibly pregnant. Just enjoy it. I know its hard when we are always looking towards the next month...but try and see what you come up with!

Rebekah said...

Go get a massage, mani/pedi, or shopping! Obviously these things can be done while not on a break, but they're so much more fun without the pressure of TTC!

Hopefully the break flies by!

April said...

i try to get my fill of things that i won't be able to have during a cycle or if i become pregnant: sushi, wine, spinning class.

manis and pedis are good, too...but i like to get those all times :)

Find joy in every journey said...

We have been on a break for the last 3 cycles and have at least one more to go. We have been cleaning out our stuff and making our house more children friendly. Also, we have been trying to do more things as a couple, go to church and prayer groups together, workout together, go grocery shopping together and also pray more together. I love wine and beer so of course I have that, too.

Mrs. Hammer said...

I'm with April and I indulge in coloring my hair, running long distances and lots and lots of sushi. I also have started to learn to knit. W'll be taking Feb-April off to prep for IVF and I thought it would be a great time to pick up a craft skill. My goal: baby booties.

Kristin said...

How about a manicure or a pedicure or a massage? Those area ll wonderful indulgences that might help you relax.

Ooooh...or go eat sushi or get a big bottle of good wine.


K said...

I think in our mind, we just hoped it would make things better so we could do IUI's with better luck...but so far, no go.
It's disappointing to say the least...and I wish you and your husband all the best. I just don't think they managed to get all the veins and that's why an embolization is better (done under an xray), but $30k is too big of a price tag for a "chance". Our insurance won't cover it. My husband is a veteran though so we might try and go through the VA and get them to cover it. You have been trying 11 months? I would have done anything at 11 months too...but it's been 4 years for us, so I think I've evolved to the point of, "let's just put this behind us!" There is always a chance it could happen on it's own someday but pursuing adoption just means we aren't waiting on that 1% chance anymore! It's super frustating for sure!
I know my DH took about a month to get back to normal, it was a brutal surgery for sure. Anytime they go through your stomach muscles, that is hard to recover from! I remember me acting silly and he would do anything to get me to stop, because laughing was so painful!
Again, wish you the best of luck and I hope and pray it changes something for you!

Anonymous said...

Hi, thanks for stopping by my blog earlier. My suggestion for this cycle is to sit in hot tubs, drink wine and coffee...etc. :) I had to endure cycles like that when we were TTC because my DH travels a lot and it seemed like he was always gone on O day. :( If he didn't love his job so much I would have made him change it. Anyhow, it is a great feeling to not dread AF but instead welcome her because she harkens the start of a new cycle with a better than 0% chance of conception. Hope you are able to enjoy it. :)

Michelle said...

Pamper yourself! Pamper yourself! Pamper yourself! you deserve it!

Sara Scissors said...

Suggestions? Well, my first break cycle in 18 months I'm getting a lap and hys...not a good time, so I don't suggest it! :) It has been nice to not focus on my meds, TI, IUI, 2ww, any of it. It's let Brian and I focus on each other and hope for our future. We haven't done any thing special, just spent time together. Seeing as we're saving for IVF we can't do too much else, but even just that has been really nice. Hope DH heals up soon and thanks for all your sweet comments on my blog posts!

Anonymous said...

As some other have said, do stuff that's not baby/pregnancy related. Just do some stuff that sounds FUN to you. :)

Beautiful Mess said...

Welcome to ICLW! I've really enjoyed it. I'm glad your hubby is feeling good. I hope you can "enjoy" your break as much as possible.